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Bright Eyes, 'Cassadaga'
'Clairaudients (Kill or Be Killed)'
'Four Winds'
'If the Brakeman Turns My Way'
'Hot Knives'
'Make a Plan to Love Me'
'Soul Singer in a Session Band'
'Classic Cars'
'Cleanse Song'
'No One Would Riot for Less'
'Coat Check Dream Song'
'I Must Belong Somewhere'
'Lime Tree'

Thats right bitches!!!!
That I must belong somewhere shit finally made it on an album!
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[03 Mar 2007|09:33pm]
irightthebook: good luck with the sunglasses!
ucantliveforever: oh you saw those pictures. I dont need luck
irightthebook: hahaheart
ucantliveforever: <3

Marc by Marc Jacobs

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[01 Mar 2007|05:36pm]
Now I know what must change. Fuck my friends.
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Bald is not beautiful. [17 Feb 2007|06:35pm]
Britney Spears shaved her head. what is the world coming to?
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No Business as Usual ( Anti- war Protest at UCSB) [16 Feb 2007|09:00am]
Drop Tuition. Not Bombs

I went to an anti-war protest at UCSB yesterday. It was something I've always wanted to do. I had my qualms about attending UCSB until yesterday, when I saw about 1000 other kids, who were passionate about the same stuff I am. Finally it felt like, wait, Im not alone here. My whole life, I've had this liberal view on life, yet I've been surrrounded by people who are as far right as you can possibly go or are just plain apathetic. That changed yesterday, when covered in sweat, with 1000 other kids my age, I helped take the 217 freeway. We marched through campus with our signs, flags, and chants and continued straight out onto the freeway. Our ultimate destination was to take the 101, but we were stopped by the highway patrol with a barricade and half the cops dressed in riot gear. A few people got arrested, so we decided not to move forward. I heard some amazing testaments and moving speeches. The best was definitely from a high school student who had " got off the bus" because he felt he needed to be at this protest. awesome.

Janean and I sitting on the 217 freeway.

Peace on the 217. We took that shit for two hours.

more pictures on my myspace blog.

The next one is March 17th. Everyone should come!
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[13 Feb 2007|05:38pm]
This Lj goes Valentines Day thing is hideous. I just thought I should mention that.
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Josh and I are nerds. [11 Feb 2007|11:17pm]
ucantliveforever (11:15:18 PM): ok i am sleeping on my computer
ucantliveforever (11:15:23 PM): I must sleep
irightthebook (11:15:32 PM): ok qwertyuiop
ucantliveforever (11:15:36 PM): hahha
ucantliveforever (11:15:39 PM): smart ass
irightthebook (11:15:40 PM): (sweet dreams in face on keyboard language)
ucantliveforever (11:15:54 PM): haha sweet dreams
ucantliveforever (11:16:01 PM): we'll talk more about this girl later
irightthebook (11:16:01 PM): actually
irightthebook (11:16:03 PM): its more like
irightthebook (11:16:06 PM): hbgju
irightthebook (11:16:19 PM): so, hbgju
irightthebook (11:16:24 PM): rteefrc
irightthebook (11:16:28 PM): (night)
ucantliveforever (11:16:41 PM): hbgju rteefrc to you too
ucantliveforever (11:16:47 PM): ( we are the nerdiest and I love it)
ucantliveforever (11:16:53 PM): and i left you a great ms comment
ucantliveforever (11:16:56 PM): HEART
irightthebook (11:17:14 PM): <3
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Why not end it all in one shot? [11 Feb 2007|09:43am]
Somehow I've gotten into emo music. no good. anyway, Im bored before work so I figured I should update. Life is really great right now. apparently so great that I dont have time to update ever. Work is going well, and Im surviving school. Last night, Jason, Erin, Celeste, Laura, Janean, and I went down to Santa Monica. It was a lot of fun, although I definitely enjoy third street more when Im high on demerol and eating fallafels. good times. Last night was completely sober but amazing. We parked in some ghetto ass parking structure and ate dinner at Hooters. Jason, Erin, and Laura had never been there before. Our girl was actually cute but most of them were still not crackin at all. We all left with loads of Hooters crap for our Hooters party. We then decided to walk around third street. I gave three dollars to a black man and he sang us a little song. Im super sad that I didnt see the psychic cat. Maybe he relocated to Venice Beach. Janean and Jason decided they wanted to go to a bar. So they went and got drunk while Laura, the Canadians, and I went shopping. We went into some Western store and tried on ridiculously expensive cowboy hats and took really funny pictures. and then the guy hit on us and gave us his number. ghetto. Made the big mistake of going into Guess and dropping 150 dollars. Laura spent double that. but it was fun. picked up Janean and Jason and Janean and Laura got into a little tiff about which makeup was better, Clinique or MAC. hella gay. I thought Janean was going to kill her. Had a really therapeutic talk with Janean on the long drive home. and I really think I need to stop being friends with some people. Work today, tomorrow, and Tuesday. Beverly Hills for VDay and an anti war protest at UCSB on Thursday. lets hope I dont get thrown in jail.
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[09 Feb 2007|12:51pm]
RIP Anna Nicole Smith.
I will miss you being fat and obnoxious and taking old men's money.
But of course, you will live on in the Trim Spa ads.
Maybe now I will finally find out who the baby daddy is.

also. Im dying.
seriously. The Smiths and I may be together soon.
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[02 Feb 2007|11:35am]
why is ventura college easier than elementary school?
also my extra rib hurts.
taco bell.
and cheesecake on saturday.
old school
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I should update my eljay [26 Jan 2007|04:11am]
but Im lazy. and I miss Troi. and my head hurts.
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school and life [10 Jan 2007|05:00am]
I never update anymore but im bored, so here it goes.

2007 so far is pretty good. Got all the classes I wanted and needed for school and works bearable at least. Janean lives here now so we get some sweet hangoutage and Laura and I are having a blast scrapbooking, shopping, and generally making fun of people.

I've decided to lay off guys for awhile. The shit with Tim was so not worth it. and I pretty much wasted my time with Curry as well. I just wish I had a guy friend, without a gf, whos not my ex, whos hot that just wants sex. Ill never find it. so Im giving up for a while. not that that has stopped people from hitting on me. in fact, I think since Ive sworn off guys, the hitting on has become more incessant.

I love guitar hero.
and I miss sleeping in.

thats my life.
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Christmas is finally over. [27 Dec 2006|04:23am]
[ mood | happy ]

Life is pretty fucking fantastic right now. I've spent the last four days with Laura and Im not at all sick of her which is really rare for me. Christmas gifts were good. I got my pink luggage and my ridiculously expensive Abercrombie jeans. Also on the list, 2 pairs of super cute and indie keds, flip flops, a gap canvas bag (good for the environment), a pink Williams Sonoma spatula from Kasey, a sweater, Urban Outfitters patent leather flats, The O.C. Season Three, etc.

No ugg loafers. sadness. but Im sure everyone else is happy about it since they all think theyre ugly.

Troi and Jeremy got me Beverly Hills 90210 Season one on dvd. I love it the mostest.

Laura got me a brand new black 30g video ipod. Amazing. I love it soooo much.

Laura spent Christmas with me which helped since family shit is kinda crappy right now. We watched movies and drove around with Jason and Janean. Saw Lucas and Fattie which was fucking hilarious. Stayed up all night talking AGAIN. woke up this morning and went On a Wii hunt. it turned out ok.. I didnt find a wii but I did buy my extra remote, Zelda, and pink cover for the remote. Now all I need is the fucking console, one more cover, and Call of Duty. Im probably going to crack and buy a ps2 as well since they are sooo cheap right now but we'll see. Wii is the first priority. Picked up an adaptor for the ipod which is amazing and should hold me till I get a new deck for escargo and pink skin for it. I love it. now my phone, ipod, and wiimote all match. Im a dork, I know.

Janean is officially here which is awesome but shes sick so I prolly wont be hanging out with her soon.

anyway, Im enjoying this drama free time.

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Its Christmas Time in the City [20 Dec 2006|07:15pm]
I havent updated in forever. New technologically advanced LJ scares the shit out of me. So that shit with Tamara and Tim pretty much blew over for them. I really have no interest in ever talking to either of them again. I could just never respect Tamara again and Tim is such a pussy and a liar that it disgusts me to think about all the stuff we did. What a waste of time. now, past that, Life has been fantastic.

Troi came home on Friday. She, Jeremy, Laura and I went to La Cab. delicious. Then we went to jeremys and played wii for a while before heading off to a kickback at Nams friends Mike's house. it was a lot of fun. Those are more my kind of people than most of my friends. It was nice to be doing something fun for once on a friday night. Laura and I were getting so sick of sitting around peoples houses. Smoking came back in a big way that night but not any since.

Ive been working my ass off at The final touch and its starting to catch up with me. I havent even finished cmas shopping yet. let alone wrapped anything.

5 days till Christmas. Im excited. Last night I went to Lauras and played guitar hero II with her. hella fun. I want a ps2 for that game alone. but my heart is set on the wii. We also watched this movie called Snow on Cedars or something which was so good. It almost made me cry. almost.
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[11 Dec 2006|03:19am]
I can come right out and say it now. Tim and i messed around a lot for the past eight months. ghetto but fun but wrong. and not worth the shit it started with people. but I wasnt all to blame. and hopefully tamara will see that at some point but until then they can have their unhealthy relationship because Im not really losing much. actually things have been better than they were before for the past couple of days. so this is basically it and I really dont want to hear about either of them any more. I have no respect for anyone who is that pathetic. Laura feels the same way. Its nice having someone who understands. and even Curry and I are cool now again. so life is good. I love christmas. but I didnt love working ten hours today. thank you laura for the conversations well into the wee hours of the morning. the highlights?

"your website should be called hotterthantamara.com" and "I took your boyfriend, your best friend and your job... what now bitch?!" - laura
"Im the kind of girl guys cheat on their gfs with"- me and josh
"I need a guy whos fun and spontaneous and exciting... even when his gf is around."_ me

oh and my trees name is gibbard.
I love it.
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so fucking true... every single line... [04 Nov 2006|05:11am]
the Romantic
Thanks for taking the test !
you chose BY - your Enneagram type is FOUR.

"I am unique"

Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.

How to Get Along with Me

Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.
Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.
Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.
Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.
Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!
What I Like About Being a Four

my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level
my ability to establish warm connections with people
admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life
my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor
being unique and being seen as unique by others
having aesthetic sensibilities
being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me
What's Hard About Being a Four

experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair
feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved
feeling guilty when I disappoint people
feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me
expecting too much from myself and life
fearing being abandoned
obsessing over resentments
longing for what I don't have
Fours as Children Often

have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in original game s
are very sensitive
feel that they don't fit in
believe they are missing something that other people have
attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.
become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood
feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents' divorce)
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Halloween [03 Nov 2006|06:24am]
was lame this year. but there were still some good times with Alyssa and Kareem. ahh friends that are still in high school...

seriously... we're hot.

and we think we're hardcore.
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[25 Sep 2006|09:59am]
Im furious, without a real right to be. Im just sick of putting so much effort into something and getting little in return.
but thats my own issue.
and I never signed up to hear all the drama.
now Im stuck in a place I never expected.

So I hung out with people every waking second I wasnt working this weekend.

Friday was attempted movie with Adam, Alyssa, Megan, and Kareem but they were all too young.
Then Adam learned the hard truth about one of his relationships.
Saturday I worked in the afternoon, then Jeremy, Laura, Erin, and Jason came over. We watched Back to the Future 2 and ate some oreos. so much fun.
they left around 1230 so I slept in Sunday then went to work all day.
Saw Adam and Joanna again.
then Laura and Erin met me at the mall. hung out for a bit, drove back to Camarillo, went to the outlet malls, met up with Jason, ate delicious Wood Ranch, then came back to my house to watch girls next door and kindergarten cop.
Its not a tumor!
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[08 Sep 2006|10:02pm]
I joined the gym.
you can mock me.

no in all seriousness Im glad I finally did. and Laura and I are going to take Kung Fu classes. not at the gym, in Ojai with Kent. I could already beat your ass if you grabbed me by the wrist. thats right. you.

Its over. on all accounts. Its a time for new beginnings and putting the past in the past.
and watching more Phil of the Future.

And if you ever say you missed me, then dont say you never lied
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love, sex, and videotape? [05 Sep 2006|02:21pm]
Fourth time's a charm? I guess not.

Ive decided that I cant keep messing around with two people at the same time anymore. Its too confusing, complicated, and bothersome. and cigarettes are too expensive.

The more things change...
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